If doubting and fear were Olympic sports, I would totally pull a "Michael Phelps" and win every medal.
This was a "what am I doing with my life" kind of week. Here are just a few of the questions that have been running through my mind:
- Is the time I spend blogging taking away from my future?
- Is my Etsy shop just a waste of time and money?
- What do I really want to do in the "real world"?
- Where will I be a year from now?
- Blogging and Etsy weren't in the plan when I started college. So, what's the point of all this?
- Which came first, the chicken or the egg?? (Ok...not that one...but still a puzzling issue.)
I broke down yesterday when all of these questions hit me at once. I can see myself graduating and walking across the stage a year from now, but what exactly will I be walking towards? That's why I love this print from Hello Jenuine. I can make plans for the future and then proceed to question everything in my life, or I can just do what I love and let the rest fall into place.
What would I do without Etsy and blogging in my life? I really have no idea. I am so thankful to have two such powerful creative passions and I need shouldn't doubt something so positive.
I love to knit. I love to blog. It seems like at least a few other people enjoy my passions too. No doubt about it. :-)
I guess this challenge wasn't as literal as wearing red lipstick and taking pictures in a yarn shop. However, being a girl that doesn't open up too often, I would say admitting my doubts and fears is quite a big step.
I don't want to go through life doubting every step I take. If I'm being honest, blogging and Etsy have brought a lot of questions into my life. But I know that they've both helped me get one step closer to understanding my strengths and gaining more confidence. However, I have no doubt that these creative experiences will ultimately help me decide what I want to do with my life and how I want to live it.
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Have a great weekend everyone! :-)
This post was just what I needed. I'm addicted to planning, and will also graduate in a year, but without a plan for that. I'm glad to have blogging and etsy to love on and to work toward something with. Guess some things you just figure it out as you go.
ReplyDeleteYou do a great work on your blog, no doubt about that. Its so inspiering. Ive actually started my first blogging for confidence challenges today; learn one song on my ukulele in one week, and then showmy newfound skills on video in one week. Im terrible at both;music and video.
ReplyDeleteStop doubting your woonderful work. And the future is going to be okey anyway, as long as you do something yo think is fun!
From your norwegian fan!
this is spot on.
ReplyDeletei have all those feelings/questions all the time.
especially since i am thinking about opening an etsy shop.
i have been out of college since 2006 and i feel like i have done nothing and sometimes feel like blogging is kind of silly.
but then there are days when i love it and so glad i have it in my life.
i love your last paragraph..& i feel the same way, i do not want to go though life doubting everything.
wonderful post love.
Oh I am so glad to have found your blog, this is an excellent post and it's such a relief to know that other people go through the same things as I do. Some days I am in love with blogging and am so grateful that I have somewhere to be creative as an escape from my 9-5 job, other days I feel completely anxious and embarrassed by it. I know that what I do for work at the moment is not my dream but I don't know how to find out what is. need to stop doubting haha. Good luck! x
ReplyDeleteWow, I seriously had the same kind of week! It's the time when you feel like you're doing too much and not doing enough at the same time that questions creep in. It's hard to keep the right perspective when even you aren't sure of what you're suppose to be doing.
ReplyDeleteI know God has a plan! I know He does for my life, it's just the moments that I forget that I start to question/freak out about the "whats" of life.
Thanks for this post. It's not nice to see someone else freaking out like I am, but is it nice to know I'm not the only one.
I am also having this problem. I'm going to be a mother of two soon, I've never been to college, and I have no idea what I want to do with my life. The only thing that I know I want to do is sell my creations (and I don't even know what those are, yet!). I have my time in the Army under my belt, but I can't really get a job based on that alone. Don't you hate being a grown up!
ReplyDeleteIf you have your education you could always do a job based on that and still blog and have your etsy shop. If blogging and etsy takes off, quit your day job!
Totally understand what you're feeling. I will be going to college in almost exactly a month, studying something I love but not necessarily sure where it will get me. And I was doubting it today, but sometimes you just got to (and excuse my language "do what you love, and f*ck the rest". - Little Miss Sunshine. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm not a very open person, so I definitely know how hard it is so admit things, even to yourself. So I'm happy you were strong enough to. ♥
Hi! I´m a spanish girl ( sorry for my english). I understand how you are feeling, I work in an office, and I´m not sure if I like what I do in job.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I doubt what I want to do in my life, sure I Know I love sewing and crafting but I ´m not sure if I have some posibilitys living that.
take care
You are a pro at blogging! You should not give it up! Look at all the neat connections we're all making here on your blog. Your "Blogging for Confidence" series is so empowering. Keep this up!
ReplyDeleteNo matter how old you get, you will always have the power to change your own mind about something, change your own career path, and change your life.
I think EVERYONE has those times hon. I know I do. Don't give up and don't let insecurities get in your way.
ReplyDeleteWow...you guys are so awesome. Thanks for sharing your doubts with me too. I know we can help each other get through these rough and confusing times. :-)
ReplyDeletehello! found you through your linking to me, glad you like the image!
ReplyDelete& it's true as the person above stated - everyone gets like this. i know i do. i left uni with no real plans, but things have worked out pretty well with just winging it. however, i work a full-time job to pay the bills & do illustration on the side & it often leaves me with less free time & sometimes wondering why i bother with working all day & working even more when i get home at night. then i remember that it's because i love creating! & if i don't like the way things are, it's me who can change that. hope you figure out what suits you soon. :)
hi! i recently found your site and i absolutely love this series and your blog! i think you are a great writer, photographer, and knitter! i just wrote about your "blogging for confidence" today and i can't wait to see more of what comes and how the challenge turns out for myself!
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I think blogging and knitting and having these creative outlets along with school has helped you on your journey towards a more confident self. And you should be proud of being able to say you don't want the doubt or insecurity.
ReplyDeleteIt's a hard but possible thing to do. <3 and there isn't anything wrong with letting etsy and knitting affect your future. Some peeps live that way! :)
I have been a stay at home mom for 13 years and have just started blogging to get some affirmations in my life. You are darling and completely impressed me with your blog. Don't give up (and I won't either) Jenni
ReplyDeleteI don't think you should give up blogging or your etsy shop either...I am also finishing up college and knitting and blogging and keeping an etsy shop, and was thinking about the same things the other day...how much of it is a waste of time/money? But then I thought of the fact that it is fun and challening, so why give up? Now I'm only worried about how I am going to find the time for it when I will, someday, hopefully, have a job....but I'm sure I will find a way somehow!
ReplyDeleteoh, and your blog is really cool, just so you know...
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Heavens. With that combination of books, what on earth are you studying?
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